wish I could just end it

losing my parents didn’t make me strong. I’m as weak as I ever was. I try something and give up when it doesn’t immediately work out. Each failure hurts to the point where I can physically feel the pain spreading through my veins and I’m not strong enough to persevere. I’m not strong enough for anything, I’m not enough for anything

another year has gone by

I even found love this time around 

and I still wanna fuckin die

I’m never going to love myself

I’m drowning in my depression